In The End

Obsession, this is the disease I am plagued with. For the longest time ever - I ponder, wonder, analyze, think, over think, scrutinize the tiniest and the most insignificant events of my life, which normal people usually do not give much thought to.

Thus, can you please imagine my state, on the days Life is a downright crazy? Some nasty incidents I have been caught up in the last few days :-

• Approaching the end of a long, exhausting walk, Looking like a miserable beggar, with a bad hair day, in bro's old t-shirt and a god forsaken golden hair band.... I meet sum1. How unfair!!! Why did this not happen when I actually look kinda hot?
• Mom's out of town! Exams are over, and I so want to like just party! Oh wait, instructions have been given to my friends, I must reach home before 10! Seriously, the woman has me on a puppet string... jeez, and of course a yelling match with your friend, does not exactly help the situation. Stupid things are said and done.
• Texting / Calling - as soon as the text was sent, or the call answered, I immediately regretted it. That sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach, or that feeling where the heart is being squished into pulp, that is embarrassment mixed with mortification mixed with OH KILL ME NOW!!

So here I am, feeling completely pathetic and all ready to rip the hair off my scalp, when I get some "Gyaan" !
Well here goes, Words of wisdom from those who have been there and done that:


---> Whats the worst that could happen?  
Analyzing the worst case scenario, seriously helps to reduce the obsessive hormones of the brain. True Story.


---> Jus Forget It Man  
Okay, so you have been stupid, well your human! Now it's time to forget about it and do some other stupid stuff.


---> Be Susegaad!
Well for those who have not seen Dum Maaro Dum (2011), this is the Goan word for living life in wistful state of peaceful apathy. Which loosely translated means careless indifference. [On an unrelated note, please do see Dum Maaro Dum, the movie is awesome!!]


So in summarization of what I am trying to convey :-

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn’t even matter

[Linkin Park - In The End]