An Awkward Encounter

In a sea of nameless faces,
A familiar smile I spot,
Reach the eyes, it did not.

Memories, which I erased,
Spin at lightning speed in the brain,
Some happy and some caused pain.

Time to engage in false charades,
Yet speech is scarce, awkward silence fills the void,
Engage in small talk and each other's gaze avoid.

Paranoia weakens the spirit,
Craving to relate, craving to connect,

Yet a simple hello, ends up in regret.

Feelings, some known and some unknown,
Like waves, they rise and ebb,
Been stuck, for so long in this complicated web.

Upon running away, I wonder if it will ever be okay?

This & that, that & this,

I change, change, change,

 yet nothing ever changes...